I'm already on my way--I just moved into a new apartment, on my own, that I'll have for the next year. In a couple weeks I turn 21 and finally enter the world of pink paper bracelets instead of markered black X's that take a few days to completely wash out of one's skin. I recently started a full-time job, as an apprentice for a piano technician who mainly restores vintage pianos. I love the job so far, and I love the apartment... but things haven't really settled to the point that it all feels real--and of course, I'm not truly independent yet.

I got a new driver's license today... I look pretty much exactly as I did five years ago. A lot has changed since I was 16, but in a lot of ways I am the same old me. I still have my head in the clouds much of the time, I'm still generally quiet and shy (even though I break out of that a bit around other musicians/songwriters), and I just... I don't feel like I'm really much different than I was 5 years ago, except for the situations I've been in and some of the skills I've collected along the way.

What I'm hoping is that I don't allow myself to hit a plateau... When I learn a new instrument I usually grasp it pretty quickly (minus French Horn... kind of sucked at that one, hehe) and progress with it pretty rapidly until I've learned enough to hold my own with it. But then the learning curve flattens out a bit, as if I've caught up to myself. And that's kind of how I feel about where I am in my life right now--as long as I can remember I've pictured myself in my twenties, in my own place, with my own job...

and now that I'm actually there (!), there's a bit of "now what?"
I guess figuring that out is the next step...

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